I Caught Their Sparkle From The Runway

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 04:03:03 GMT

So my Christmas eve sucked....my uncle and a mexican ruined my pair of UFOs and a shirt of mine....they threw me in the mud.....that ruined the white shirt....and they put a big ass hole in the UFOs and I doubt there gonna pay for it....if they dont.....Ill steal the money from them....holler. They were $70 pants.....there definately paying for it. My mom agrees that there paying for it, regardless. My dad is trying to blame it all on me.....They were making fun of what I was wearing (black UFOs and a white tshirt) so I made fun of them back....than my uncle kept on wiping his shoes on my pants and than he told me to step outside with him and Chris (mexican) and when I did my uncle grabbed my legs and chris (mexican) grabbed my arms. my pants ripped because my uncle was trying to rip my pants off.....than they kinda dragged me in the mud. happy holidays. My family sucks.

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 00:01:19 GMT

wow, im finally home. I havent been home long enough to update this shit in a while. I just kinda....left....claire and shannon so home on the computer....woooo, and uuuuh yeah Ive been out a lot. to may stupid stories and things to write. Odd are ive been hanging out with you over this.....just about 15 day period of time in which I havent updated....I promise ill try better to update more :) uuuuuh....thats it.

Wed, 10 Dec 2003 03:26:29 GMT

My name is Mary. I'm 9 more than 3. My eyes are all swollen. I cannot see. I must be stupid I must be bad. What else could have made my daddy so mad. I wish I were better. I wish I weren't ugly. Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me. I can't speak at all. I can't do a wrong, or else I'm locked up all the day long. When I awake I'm all alone. The house is dark, my folks arn't home. When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice so maybe I'll get just one whipping tonight. Don't make a sound, I just heard a car. My daddy is back from Charlie's bar. I hear him curse. My name he calls. I press myself against the wall. I try and hide from his evil eyes. I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry. He finds me weeping. He shouts ugly words. He says its my fault that he suffers at work. He slaps me and hits me and yells at me more. I finally get free and I run for the door. He's already locked it and i start to bawl. He takes me and throws me against the wall. I fall to the floor with my bones nearly broken and my daddy continues with more bad words spoken. IM SORRY! I scream but it's now much to late his face has been twisted into unimaginable hate. The hurt and the pain, again and again. O plz god have mercy! O plz let it end! And he finally stops and heads for the door while I lay there motionless, sprawled on the floor. My name is mary and I'm 9 over 3, tonight my dad murdered me.

Sue had it...I thought it was sad and true. So I figured Id post it along with one of my won stupid little poems

On the outside im fine
From the inside im apart
The sun never shines
All I se is dark

Why do you mean so much to me
Why does all of this matter
Spread my wings and fly free
My refelction is lost my reflection is shattered

I dream of nothing because thats what I am
Thats all I ever will be
I am dirt you are glam
This means nothing to any of you but it means the world to me
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Wed, 10 Dec 2003 01:34:54 GMT

Today I went to Heathers house after school for a little bit and we got locked out so we had to go to 7-11 to call her brother from a payphone for him to let her in...I had to go because Jen was gonna pick me up at 4. She was late as hell....I went out and got cigarettes and wendys with big momma and finally at 6 I got her phone call...and she picked me up like 5 minutes later...me ehr and ellis drove around for a while and almost got into 4 accidents. her car (mitsubish eclipse) was rated the #1 worst car to be driving in the snow with....and not only was it the cars fault...but...its Jen lol. Wellllll...im home Heather called me but I lost her number....I hope she calls back...how do you add people to your friends list...I need to add Nicole and I cant figure it out...

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 03:19:54 GMT

Today was ilk.afterschool I went out with Ally for like...2 hours than she had to go to a psychiatrist appointment. At her shrink...she met this gay guy. She talked to him a little bit. She said hes cute. Shes gonna talk to him again for me...I doubt anything will come of it. So hats not important now is it? Afteer she left I aimlessly walked around Westfield into random stores...I spent an hour in some cologne/perfume store and sprayed all of their shit on me...I smell good but its giving me a headache. Oh well. When Jen got out we drove around and did nothing really important...nobody was out in Westfield today. Im in a bad mood...lifes boring as hell. Im always so bored. everything that I used to love is just boring and all the newer things I do is boring. Life feels like a punishment to me right now. I alsop realized I ALWAYS think that people are lieing to me unless they tell me something bad about me. If somebody ever says something good about me....I jsut wipe it off as a lie. But whenever somebody says something bad, I believe it and I thank themmfor there honosty.....im bored and in a bad mood once again....ugggh...I hate this feeling. Will somebody please fucking comment so I feel as if this was all worthwhile?

Sun, 07 Dec 2003 17:13:59 GMT

This weekend was crazy. After school friday Heather pushed her mom and ran out of the house and we spent the whooooole weekend together doing really really various things. It was weird. Too many details. But we were with Mike Claire Brian and Jess all weekend. It was cool as hell. We were either at my house, Claires house, warehouse, diner, dunkin donuts or out on the street.....Heather just went home because her mom called my house....Nobody knows how she got the number, oh well....shes back thre and im sure shes in deep shit. uh oh.

NOOOOO im not cool enough for good charlotee...what am I gonna do with my life now!?!?!?!

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 04:51:10 GMT

In my opinion, you needn't be here, or on ANY Good
Charlotte quiz for that matter. YOU SUCKED!!!
You stupid Teenie, go back to Avril, you aren't
good enough for GC, sorry. Benji hates you -
you should be ashamed. Did you not believe me
when I said this quiz was hard? Bet you didn't.
Next time you'll listen, won't you?

An EXTREMELY hard Good Charlotte Lyrics Quiz (Literally!)
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oh my goooood im like so totally not punk enough for good charlotte? I mean what else is there to do to love them I like so totally listen to Z100....go to Mtv shows and like so totally shop at hot gothic...oh wait I mean hot topic...the only thing gothic around here is like so totally me. Im gothic. I think being gothic means you dress in all black because than your like soooo gothic...yeah does anybody wana totally like come to my super cool like mall with me and go shoppppping i like totally wanna be like GC but im not PuNk enough for it.....fucking stereotypes. Id hate to say it but my grandma is "punk" enough for good charlotte....wanna know why? THERE POP MUSIC!!!!! fucking iddiots. whoever made that quiz is a ::holds fingers up in the L shape:: LOSER!!!!! Ill love Zeromancer forever....they dont play on z100 either.

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 22:07:19 GMT

well yesterday I did hung out. Me and Claire went around and so on and so forth. We went to Leslies house and than met up with Shannon and Rich I think his name is...hes not importnant hehe.....we went to Heathers house and smoked in her bathroom. I was fucking done.....it was fun :) Heathers little sister walked in the room while we were doing it to hahaha it was funny as hell when we were high me and heather fell over on a chair and made jokes about what if her sister got high hehehe.

TOOOOODAY I got picked up by NATE DIZZLE!!!!1 He picked me up after school and we cleared up our little argument. I <3 Nate Dizzle and now im waiting for brittany to get ehre so we can go to some NA meeting in Westfield....its freezing out...I hate winter and snow...it was snowing during school when I was going from the building to the trailors.....it sucked...me and heather played in it through.....Cristina stalked Turkey Boy....OH GOD we made fun of him and The Goblin soooooo bad in Health class and computer apps...its so funny....you have to be there though...

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 02:01:17 GMT

So yeah...I hate sundays, they suck and make me feel all sad and a week of school is ahead plus a few days of ISS I think....they keep rescheduling it though so I never have any clue......Well Jill and Danny and some other chic and some other chic went to Dannys house....we ditched some other chic #1 because she scared us and than we had to drive some other chic #2 home....ALL THE WAY TO UNION BEACH!!! I was like....wow....well we dropped her off and told her wed go back to get her but we never did....So me Jill and Danny went to some guy Eddys house....him and his whole family were such chill people....you could smoke in the house and fart and burn and do practically anything....the parents showed us pictures of them drunk at a Korn concert....I was like....oh my god....there amazing....We were there for a while and than we had to go and drive all the way back....the car ride home was just us 3 singing to random songs.... pass that dutch pass that dutch....good song...we all sang it...I dont think pass that dutch is the name....but Missy Elliot songs it....that songs fun. Well I got dropped off....and yeeeeeeeeeeah...im here now....bored....as heeeeeeeeell.....why is it that as soon as I go home I update this thing....I dont think I have a life....oh well....no life pride.

I stole this from Danny....but I think its CUTE

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 05:54:56 GMT

If your as bored as me, fill it out.

01: What is your first memory of me?
02: How long have we been friends?
03: Tell about one memory we share together?
04: Describe me in four adjectives?
05: If we could spend a day together what would we do?
06: Name one thing you really don't like about me?
07: Name one thing you really do like about me?
08: If you could give me a gift what would it be?
09: Have we ever gotten in a fight & about what?
10: Have we ever hugged?
11: Have we ever danced with each other?
12: Have you ever seen me cry?
13: Have I ever offended you?
14: What do I usually look like when you see me?
15: What do I say all the time\what?s my catch phrase?
16: Do you think we will be friends in 5 years?
17: Do you think I am bitchy?
18: Has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't?
19: What advice would you give me, in general?
20: Wanna make out?
21: Suggest a band / c.d. for me to listen to?
22: Is there a song that reminds you of me?

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 03:40:13 GMT

Today I went to Westfield....I hung out with Ally....We just did stuff....I woke up at 1:30 today...i waaaay overslept....Ashleys dad never came to pick me up so I left at 4:50 to Westfield...Met up with Ally...we did the usual walking around stuff....Me and Saz seem to not hate eachother....but than again we dont seem to like eachother...so I guess thats a good thing.....JILLS BACK FROM VERMONT!!!!! Fuck you all im hanging out with ehr tomorrow....yaaaay...I cant believe tomorrows Sunday....the break went by fast....Damn, Westfields getting boring...hopefully something good happens to bring back my motivation to return...Well Jills there now...so now one of my best friends from there is back....wooot.

Sat, 29 Nov 2003 04:49:06 GMT

My computers being an ass so im gonna make this as short as possible. Thanksgiving, fuck my family...satan drove me to starbucks...i saw Mike the guy I like.....I think he knows....I kinda want him to...well than we talked for a little bit about stuff....than satan drove me to Ashleys house and we picked her up and we bought pizza and twix ice cream bars...we ate the pizza than my family left to wherever and than me and ashley had one of those TV moments where we just sat on the sofa eating a quart of nasty disgusting mocha chip ice cream.....it kinda ruined the moment but it was there for a little....We went to Starbucks and met up with Mike and Monkey Boy and....some guy....we walked around and met up with Juliah and Robin...everyone left excet me Mike Ashley Juliah and Robin....Juliah and Robin and Ashley convinced me and Mike to hook up so the first time we did I laughed and turned away and ruined it....the second time we did it for like....3 minutes until we notcide that they wer staring at us....by the way we had to leave our spot because some truck driver sytaled us....he parked there and watched us...It was freaky...well yeah Juliah and Robin left and me and Ashley drove Mike home and than I slep at Ashlyes house.....and now today I woke up at Ashleys...her little brother cursed off the little old lady and than we went to the store where shge bought lis a gift...im so proud for not saying what stgore it was....and I went to Westfield and saw everyone except Mike and Justin....the 2 hot guys :( and than i went to Allies and we had fun just being us lol....im buzzed now....my mom gave m 2 smirnoff ices...I cant believe im buzzed from that....its hot up here....go away....

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 05:35:53 GMT

Everyone puts these thoughts into my head
Thoughts of how im so great
Little did I know
his was all just to cover up their hate

Dont be afraid to tell me the truth
Im all grown up now, I can handle it
Give it to me all at once
Stop giving it to me me bit by bit
piece by piece
little by little

I want to know who my true friends are
So give me your worst
Deliver me just one last scar
It will be the only one that honostly didnt hurt
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Today was to awesome to put into words....I cant even describe it.

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 04:48:13 GMT

Today school was the same....Cristinas older brother is trying to hook me up with his friend....he supposedly looks like Jay Gordon from Orgy...if he does all I have to say is that its on. After school I was supposed to meet up with Brittany and soem black guy she knows to meet up with Ally and than go to an AA meeting for the fun of it....Brittany got sick so I ended up just hanging out with Ally....we bummed cigarettes and walked around stop and shop and bought a shit load of food....I like food..We ate some of it than we went to her house where we sat around and talked about stuff and looked at hot guys in magazines....my mom came picked me up and drove me home....tomorrow me and ally are hanging out again...YAAAAAY........so0o0 yeah....the end.

Zeromancer:Quiz 2

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 04:45:07 GMT

You are Nothing But eurotrash You take plastic and
you take cash You sell your heart second class
You slit your throat on tinted glass YOU
ROCK!!!

Whitch Zeromancer Song are you?
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Which Zeromancer song am I Quiz:1

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 04:40:49 GMT

Lamp Halo
(You are Lamp Halo! " Just like a fly on a
jar, twinkle, twinkle little star you don't
feel like you belong here") Satisfied with
your life you don't regret much..

What Zeromancer best describes you? (ZZYZX)
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Wed, 26 Nov 2003 04:37:23 GMT

Ace of Diamonds

What playing card are you?
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what now...I know I can pass something

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 04:33:36 GMT

I did it in 29</big></b> seconds.
I deserved a B!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 02:20:53 GMT

SCHOOL
1st period-skipped most of it....I said I was going to the guidance office to get working papers...which I was...but I just wlaked aroun and talked to Samwise and Joe...went back to english and watched the last of some movie the book Of Mice and men
2nd period- Math...im in a little kid class....I dont talk to anyone there
3rd period- Coulas the alcoholic had a hangover so we had a sub in the cafeteria me and cristina made fun of lakookaracha/goblin/hobgoblin/gnome/dwarg/whatever her name is...we have lots of bad names for her. We made her cry, than we made fun of good charlotte...the band and the girl in my class....
4th period-health-FUNNYNESS me and heather showed our gay pride and danced around because we had a sun whos cool....he let us outisde...me and her were screaming our whole "hooray were gay" thing and skipping and dancing through the trailor...Kevin Ng and this kid called us fags so we called them chinks....nbecause they are...yaaay...Me and Cristina and Heather all made fun of la kookaracha again and turkey boy...(he has a HUGE adams apple) we all decided for Christmas were buying him tweezers...we told him, and he looked sad, so we felt bad....so we laughed really hard because for a second there....we thought we cared.
5th period-college prep world history...I passed that class with a B!!!! ther was a sub and she let me peek at Trezzas grade book...Im so happppy! Well me and ding and ashely adn nicole just talked....the sub was a bitch...iggy bop and eddy made fun of her to ehr face....how amusing...
6th period-spanish-me and samwise of course....we kick ass were the only kids out age in that class....we failed spanish 2 years in a row, so everyones in 8th grade....but me and sam are in 10th :( we make fun of the kids except for these few cool people....Yeah....nothing interesting at all
7th period-biology-another sub!!! me and Gio pretended we had to go to guidance but we skipped the whole class went outside and had a few stoges....

After school me and heather had stoges than Claire came and wlaked me home and we hung out than went out with a bunch of ghetto kids and waited for a fight that never happened because the cops came. We met up with jen and she bought me cigarettes. Me and Claire met up with Nick me and him talked while Claire went to Natalies I told her id meet her there so I talked to Nick for a little bit and than I met up with Claire and Natalie...I scared her boyufiend on the phone by acting gay and saying random...homosexual things....I just got home a little bit ago and here I am...me and shannon talked about how we wondered how John Appenzellers house sold because he pissed in the corners of his room and its a shit hole...Just figured id mention it because its funny...I met heathers new boyfriend too...hes cute and hes really cool....and likes goooood music, so yeah....my lifes boring...Byt he way another funny thing is Claire and Shannon ripped the mercedes emblem off of a mercedes we saw in the back of World Of Liquor....It was hilarious...yaaaay!

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 02:36:52 GMT

Yeah...you know what...about the last entry when I said im gonna keep something private.....im not...My dad pissed me off yesterday because I smoke and he gave me a schedule of when im allowed to be in my own house....he semi-kicked me out....!!!!!!!! What an asshole!!! I can come home after school for 30 mins and than I have to go out until he leaves and my mom calls my cell phone and telle her the time he wants me home by....I get no money, and no food, and nothing to do....thank god I have friends otherwise id be fuuuuuuucked....This blows...I went to the house today when I wasnt supposed to with Jess and my mom yelled at me for coming home without my father saying so....I cant wait until the day she finally realizes how stupid shges acting....doing whatever my dad wants her to do...and divorces him. Untgil than though....youll probably see me outside...

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 02:21:04 GMT

Today was...interesting....I did my shit last night...if you wanna know talk to me about it...I dont want everyone knowing....something in my life im actually gonna keep private.....wow...Jess called me and we hung out, I hwelped her watch her 2 little brothers for an hour than we walked around and went to westfield...Amanda and Ally were there....and so were 3 kids...but I dont like them....Amanda left 30 minutes after I got there :( Ally went home and took the three kids with them....me and Jess met up with tom!!!! I love tom for some odd little reason....I dunno....Well we threw a shopping cart at a car....the mirror thing on the side broke and dented back...the car had a dent in it and a few scratches....yippee! We went to the train statio and went home...I miss Amanda already :(

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 04:59:37 GMT

Well Danny and Kiaser made out today and Danny asked Kaiser out...there dating now, I really hope that dating Kaiser was worth losing me as a friend....today went so great...and this ruined it all....After all of dannys lieing and puitting me on guilt trips....I know im not crazy, I knew this was goijg to happen....Danny denied it all because hes a lillte bitch, but what can I do about it....I just dont want to talk to him....

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 19:17:18 GMT

You know what I just realized about my userpic.....it looks like I have an earring.....but I dont have an earring....thats freaky....

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 05:04:10 GMT

Okay.....I forgot this for some odd reason....I have a job now....so Im gonna have two jobs...The one I got today is in westfield...Its some flower store called Kabloom..dont ask, im desperate for some cash...and i cant believe i forgot this

Its official as nellys basketball jerseys....me and amanda are officially married....Its crazy....were seriously married...i had fun....and now...im kinda not single in a way...but I dont like girls...so me and amanda are gonna adopt a little chinese girl baby....Im still open for guys though....woooot.

Everything you do is in the shape of my heart....

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 05:00:59 GMT

Well today in school I talked to Jessica....she used to dress all nice and stuff....she ALL OF A SUDDEN dressed all ghetto-fab. I got her to admit she was trying to impress Luis. She said its because Luis calls her a white girl...I screamed out white pride...I than tried to talk to her about how wearing a basketball jersey and doing your hair with a pound of latino gel does not make you not white...I told her shes Irish...and she will always be that way...shes one of the very few people ive seen thats lighter than Meg Hamilton (for those of you who read this and know who she is....now you KNOW Jessicas white as hell) and she has bright blue eyes...shes really pretty...but being bootylicious just isnt her thing...oh well

After school today me and my dad got in another fight and I went to Westfield and Amanda came there and yeeeah....I like this bi guy from there...his names Mike...we held hands walking so he could have a gay moment because he hasnt had one in a while...and since than I kinda liked him....hes taken by my friend Irene though...and I would never do ANYTHING to try to break them up. Well in Westfiled I did the usual shit...the cops were being cool tonight and not kicking us out of our spot...

Jen came with Satcey and we drove around and made our own little twisted versions of rap songs...we made popcorn and threw it at cars...than we spit on cars...were such losers...but oh well....each time I get in Jens car...her muffler gets louder and louder....its crazyness....Well im bored and tired and all that shit....bye.